Sunday, June 25, 2023

Going to college in a tent along the side of the road. (dream)

DREAM

A teacher has been molesting me at my college, but I can't find a way to talk about it to anyone. We students all do our homework in individual tents in a long row on the side of the street, and a teacher regularly comes into my tent and snuggles with me. 

I definitely do not like it. But words about it just aren't coming to me and I don't know if there's anyone I could tell who could do something about it. My only hope is that these new cameras they've been installing has caught some footage. Maybe someone is monitoring that footage. 

I see that the researchers at this college are studying physical abnormalities in students and wonder if that's part of the rationalization for coming into my tent and doing this to me.

I write in my diary about the commute to the school--how to get there via the bus, and it's like I'm reliving the experience. The whole city is very gray and subdued in color.

INTERPRETATION

This dream is both related to my trauma from last summer, and not related. It's related in that I definitely felt taken advantage of, and I felt as though there was no one to talk to about this, and words were always insufficient when I tried to talk about it--but there was no physical or sexual assault like in this dream. 

I think I have the strongest memories of college from my days in California, where I took the bus to the college and carried everything I needed for the entire day in small, rolling luggage. I'd stay there sometimes from 7 a.m. to 11 p.m., so it was like camping there.